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yoga and dream sequences
2002-01-31 - 1:03 a.m.
strange. resolved to not face up to my issues with my parents and not go back for chinese new years. not surprisingly enough, choosing not to go meekly into the slaughter has had a great effect on my spirits. i know it's cowardly, but i'm still glad in that 'oh-shit-that-car-almost-ran-me-over-but-didn't' way where you forget about it almost instantly and walk the rest of the way across the street pondering whether to get sushi or thai for dinner.
taking care of a baby for the last few days has made me a little shellshocked. i didn't think i was stressed, but i realized when i got home, my eyes weren't focusing, i wasn't listening to jeff, i was still a little wigged out from the pressure of taking care of a little baby all day. jenifer came home and it was so beautiful, how the baby just sat in her lap and looked happy... i'm pretty impressed with her and stephen. he's cute and they look happy.
i'm convinced that when babies look into your eyes, they're hypnotizing you with their babies powers so you get emotionally attached to them. kinda sad to go today, i should go and visit them again soon. i'm such a sap!
i acted kinda weird when jenifer got back from work today because of the money thing. i'm not comfortable with mixing money and friends-- if i didn't need the cash, i wouldn't take it. jeff laughed at this and said, 'you worked, right? you deserve to get paid.' i know. but it was weird enough taking money from gus for my rice cooker. god, i sound like a wasp from farmington. reminds me of this one boy i dated who insisted i never pay for anything in his presence, and sent his younger brother to get me something to eat while he was at class and i was visiting him. he was sweet. but way out on planet mars.
too many dvd's (the sopranos), no sleep, and extreme maternal tweaking the last 48 hours and i think it's high time for bed. heavy sad lumpy brain.
ooga booga. *drool* becoming. like. baby. daar.